It’s become a habit to always do something good for me on the day before school holidays start and the day after they wend.
And yesterday I especially needed a treat, a bit of a boost. I’d found the last couple of days of the holidays really hard and had been very weepy.
I miss my husband, and it’s been hard going to have all four noisy, lovely, demanding boisterous bairns at home on my own. Probably should have made sure we had another au pair, but I felt I needed a break.
Anyway, a day of weepiness and feelings of being trapped and strangled (sorry kids) is one thing. But I could feel the self pity wanting to linger and get it’s nasty little fingers deep into my soul…
Luckily for me, I go to a regular recovery meeting on a Tuesday morning in beautiful Dee Why. I love this meeting where nothing I can say will shock anyone and many others have been held hostage by their crazy thinking.
And straight after, I whizzed over to the south end of the beach and went on this fantastic coastal bush walk.
This isn’t a long walk, about 3-4km depending on where you start from in Dee Why. But it feels like an adventure, and the views north to Long Reef and beyond will send even the saggiest spirits flying free.
The track is pretty rough and rocky, with lots of steps cut into the sandstone. It’s a narrow track too and all higgletypigglety. It feels a million miles away from city living. Perfect.
Now then, this is not a walk for strollers, and certainly not one for very young children. The very steep cliffs run alongside the path at some points, terribly dangerous for non-sensible kids. Very beautiful and thrilling for kids who are safe near cliffs and good walkers.
You can see Curl Curl beach down there. If you walked all the way to the end you could have a coffee or lunch at the great cafe at South Curly.
On the way back I stopped to look down at the water. My stomach always lurches, just like it does at Scenic World, a feeling I find oddly pleasant.
Ah, it won’t be long until I’m back doing ocean swimming, that was last summer’s magical mood lifter.
Feelings of being trapped and emotionally alone are terrible triggers for me.
There couldn’t have been a better way to break free from those suffocating obsessive thoughts and feelings than waving children off to school (and they went so happily, god bless them) and then literally taking a hike.
So glad I did that rather than sit at home doing desk stuff weepily. Apologies to all those whose emails went unanswered!
Thank goodness for fresh air and sunshine and the great outdoors. Thanks Sydney for this short but intense coastal walk, one of so many in our beautiful city.
How’s your week going?
Have you been able to get outdoors and shake the mental cobwebs away?
Back to work!